Thanksgiving Day 2008 - come and gone..

But the memories are still there and will always be.  I'm kicking myself today for not taking any pictures!!!  Here I have this great new camera, and didn't take a shot.   So sad...  (so stupid I should say!)....   But we all had a good visit, good company, good food - a HUGE mess, but finally, at about 11am this morning, I wiped down the countertops for the last time... DONE!  

Time to gear up for the the last big holiday of the year..   My Christmas shopping is done (all done online as I will NOT deal with crowds... and surprising enough, I HATE shopping period!).. Everything is paid for, the last gift arrived on Tuesday or Wednesday, and now just need to wrap them all up.  Didn't get much for the grandson, as he has too much already - got him a couple things from Crayola.com (heheh dot com)... I am, however, going to buy him a couple boxes of dixie cups as he loves building his pyramids (castles) with them.   Talk about keeping it simple huh?

I hope you all enjoyed the holiday!!   

Lots to say...

Yea... I have A LOT to say, but can't right now as there are people around me all the time it seems..  I'm ready for a mere hour of PEACE & QUIET!   Well maybe 2  hours..    It might be an interesting read...  sad read..    Lots to get off my mind..   

Eye exam results..

Well spent a couple hours at the eye specialist this morning...   I have a "fleck/freckle" in my left eye - always thought it was kinda cool - almost like a gold fleck implanted in my eye (I used to say that back when I was a "cool teenager".. hahah).    After my regular eye exam at the beginning of November, my doc referred me to a specialist as she thought this might be like a melanoma (granted not on my skin - but can  happen in the eye as well).   I wasn't too worried about it - until this morning when I had to have it "seriously" checked out.   

Went through the dilating, numbing, relaxing of the eyes yet again, and had some funky tests done..   I swear one of them was a mini cattle prod that he stuck in my eye..    I must say I felt nauseous a couple times, but I got through it all.  

So after all was said and done, he determined that since there are no "roots" sprouting throughout my eye from this "fleck" that it's not cancerous...    whew...     I go for a recheck in 6 months (unless I see anything different beforehand - I must be honest and say that I never checked this "fleck" or gave it a second thought!)... and then annual exams after that.  

Merry Xmas to me!!!   :)

Yet another eye exam on Thursday..

I had an eye exam at the beginning of November..  Yea, I knew my sight was failing just a tad - "what did that street sign say?".. haha  Had problems reading my printouts at work, reading my computer screen at work and I'll just blame my bad aim playing HL2 on the vision problem also!  lol Turned out I have 20/30 vision in my right eye (not bad for an old hag) and 20/60 vision in my left eye...  just a little blinded on that side..    

In my left eye, I've had a "fleck" (as I call it) -been there for as long as I can remember.  Doctor calls it a freckle... whatever - it's gold like a fleck of gold in the middle of a blue ocean.   Doctor wants to know - "exactly how long have you had this?" ..   I respond with "hell if I know! - been there as long as I can remember!"...    She asked me to ask my parents...   I told her "when you get the number to heaven, let me know and we'll call together!"  heh!   So anyway, I don't know how long I've had this. No one to ask other than my one living sister who has no clue.   

So I see the eye specialist Thursday and see what he thinks of my gold fleck in the middle of the blue ocean ..   I was told this could take from 1.5-3 hours, I need a ride due to dilation, numbing and relaxing the eye... and I don't have to go to work after cuz I won't be able to see so good..    Can't work and won't be able to play games at home - what the hell am I going to do with myself for like 3 hours???  haha Hmmm..maybe I'll take my ride to lunch (since she - my oldest - has to get up so early to bring me) ...  

I just hope it's nothing serious (can't be, I've had it tooooo long!)!   Looking on the bright side!  Wait! where is the bright side?  (hehe)

Work BLAH

Here comes the whole work deal....  There are almost 1,000 employees in our New England based company, but only 2 "Corporate Account Specialists" (CAP) - me being one them..  impressive title huh? We have VP's of everything who I know get paid a small fortune, 15 salespeople (which isn't much!) that range from the northern most parts of Maine, up to Burlington VT, out to Buffalo NY and down to Woodbridge NJ and places in between (who get paid ALOT).   Drivers, dockworkers, clerks and managers and supervisors and lots of "titles"!!   LOTS of titles and if you have a title, you are superb!  you are better than the rest! (so many think) ... DUH.. we ALL have a title!!   (jerks)...  

You know, there comes a time when titles don't mean "jack" and senority becomes a thing of the past...   and that's where we are now.  The workload keeps growing and growing to a point where you (me that is) tells your boss (the VP of Sales and Marketing) that there isn't enough hours in the day for me to accomplish what you want..      hahaha..    He doesn't care..  "just get it done" ..  No problem.. I get it done.. but me and the other CAP are now behind with all the other reports, etc..    What does one do??    Customers are complaining that their reports aren't on time, etc..   The boss bitches.. what does one do in this situation?   I've tried to tell him that there is ONLY 24 hours in a freaking day!  grrr

I almost walked out (of work) today..  I don't need this crap - I'm 50 years old, been in the trucking business for almost 25 years - give me a break.  The economy sucks right now, but you know what? I've never collected unemployment (not that I want to)...  but maybe it's time while I scope out a new job.hmmm...... lots to contemplate...    But I won't walk out - I'm not that way (as much as liked to be sometimes)...  I'll deal with that SOB when he gets back from his FLORIDA vacation and we'll go from there.   Hey!!! Maybe he can do all these tailor-made reports and deal with the rest of bull that goes on, on a daily basis...   (I'd love to see that!)

Just another day

Another Monday.. come and almost gone.. The "crew" came home last night and the house shows it.

He emptied the dishwasher yesterday morning... I had to empty it again when I got home from work today. I sometimes wonder if the kids have many people over in the late hours of the night and have parties and use up the glasses and dishes and bowls... and sometimes I wonder how many people REALLY live here. Could there be some that I don't know about?

The countertops, coffee tables, end tables, carpet, floors... you name it.. clean as a whistle Saturday and Sunday...Doesn't take a whole lot of effort to clean a house with 2 people in it... Then the "crew" (that's 3 whole people... a 27 y/o , 24 y/o and 4 y/o) come home and the counters are cluttered with "stuff", there are backpacks here and there (like right in the middle of the floor in some areas), laundry baskets - with clothes that need to be washed and dryed... in general .. STUFF! ... and to top it off, these girls are "neat freaks" --- but not in the areas that I NEED them to be in. Getting tired of picking up after them and stacking all their "stuff" on the stairs, hoping they will bring it up with them when they head up to their rooms.. (and yes, I know, they are taking advantage --- so everyone tells me anyway...  since they live here, room and board, FREE)... That's another story for another day.

Grandson is in the tub... having fun cuz Gram put bubbles in tonight... His mom is at school until 10:40 tonight and his auntie is working at the hospital and then has to go to the doctors house that she was taking care of over the weekend (the dogs and the house) and get her stuff as they came home a day early.

I cooked for him and my grandson... He cleaned up... I had my bit of peace for the moment (while the young one has been in tub)... My time to go wash his hair and the rest of him and get him in his jammies and then it's "relax" time.

Just another day...

Another day of peace and quiet??

Hmmm.. I started my day by freaking out when I looked at the clock upon waking ...  9:10am!!!!! Half the day is wasted!!   Then I thought again... wow, I must have been tired.   And I also didn't have a small 4 year old boy staring me down at 6:30-7:00am (like most weekends) asking to climb into bed with me as he is "cold" (Grammie keeps the fan on in the bedroom ... even in winter).   So I guess sleeping SOOO late wasn't half bad!   But seriously... who wouldn't want to see this happy little face waking them up in the morning??

I had a quiet breakfast as the old man slept til around 10am - played some boring puzzle games on the computer, made out the grocery list and started my one load of laundry and got the banking done.   Now he is off doing the groceries (I don't do groceries - if he doesn't do it or the kids don't do it, we have no food - I refuse to go.. period), the kids are still gone, I'm thinking until this evening, so it looks like another day in my small, boring, quiet world.   YES!!!!!!!!!!!  

One thing I have to do today is to stop thinking about tomorrrow..   back to work, back to the same routine, taking care of the grandson in the evenings as his mom is taking classes at night... tub time, bedtime..   STOP!  It will come soon enough...  

Going to play TF2 and HL2 and all that fun stuff!!!

Saturday November something.. 2008

I probably should tell you about me first... but I will in due time (it will blend in I'm sure).  I'd rather talk about my day today.   It's been a LONG time since I've had any time to myself and today I did!  It was awesome!!!!   I have 2 daughters living at home (27 and 25) - both have left and come back and left and come back and whatever..    My youngest has a little boy - he's 4 (my little grandson :)  ... so to say the least, this is usually a busy busy house - no peace and quiet.. no place to hide (for me).   I love them all to no end.... but again, i have no space AT ALL!   

So this weekend.. it's raining, miserable, getting colder and colder.. just a blah type of day..  I'm sitting here *glowing*!   If my kids ever read this I'm sure they will understand (well I hope they do anyway!)... But I'm happy to be alone!  My fiance' worked all day...  my oldest is working & dog/house sitting for the weekend, my youngest and grandson are in Boston hanging out at her cousins house for the weekend - and I was HAPPY to be ALONE ALL DAY!!!   

I really needed this time to myself..   (sigh of relief!)