Deep breath!

Well I had the weekend off. Daughter and grandson went to Maine for the weekend and my oldest was working and at her boyfriends... I truly did need this break!! Me and the old man cleaned the house and that left me to do what I wanted and him to relax and take control back of his TV and recliner! hahah

I played HL2DM and Left 4 Dead with my friends - we ordered dinner out last night - I slept late yesterday morning (10am!! that's soooo late for me!) and 8am this morning (still very late for me!) - but obviously, I am tired and my body/brain took advantage of the silence..

I most certainly know that I am not "cured" of my problem here, but I certainly feel better today after the sleep and doing what I want and the QUIET!! Happy to see my house in ship-shape status but I know when they all come home tonite that will be gone.. I need to stop thinking ahead and just enjoy the time I have left this weekend... Me and the old man are going to cook some steaks on the grill for dinner (it's 50 degrees here today!!) and then go and hide before the crew gets home..

Another deep breath... exhale ... better.. (for now)

Burn down the Hotel Morel?

I don't think I've been this miserable in a long long long time.. Everybody wants wants wants, but no one wants to give... I'm at my wits end.. they "need" - I am supposed to fill those needs, and like the dumbass that I am, I have been .. (and they know it) I ask a question... I get my head bit off.. I'm exhausted.. not sleeping good, feeling sick.. can't hear out of my left ear at this point.. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr I might just burn down this house and wish them all luck finding a home... I'll live in a fucking box.. I don't care anymore..

Whew...

I think I'm stressing out... or something.. ugghhh